never in my whole life did i encounter the meaning of 'mentally exhausted'. never did i think that i would be in such a state. but i am. i didn't think that it would be possible, but it is. my course is taking too much out of me. they're all pulling me in different directions, none of which is a path i want to cross. i suppose this is how it feels if you're not really supposed to be in this profession? but i can't back out. not now. i'm not trying to dramatize this, but i can't. i've invested…