So this week basically started off well, with the three movies I saw last Monday and The Comedy Cartel show I saw with Nicole and Louie later that evening. It was very enjoyable, especially because I got to gab with Nicole and got to spend one whole night in Manila again. I missed that.
But then shit hit the fan and I had some sort of an emotional breakdown from Tuesday to Thursday. I was all emo and whinny and bitchy and annoying, I know. I apologize. Now in retrospect I don’t even know what the hell I was complaining about. I literally had no excuse for my behavior because no, it wasn’t that time of the month either. It really was just an emotional breakdown.
As it turns out I can’t do emo for long periods of time. I literally don’t have the stomach for that kind of angst because every time I stress over something I get these mothereffing painful tummy spasms that make me bolt for the nearest toilet and that was probably too much information right there. Sorry. I lasted a grand total of three days of being all emo before the optimism and perkiness finally broke through the haze.
Sure I still get feelings of ‘you’re not good enough’ once in a while and my mother’s caught me staring off into space a couple of times today but I’ve decided to just let it go. Not everything of course, but I’ve chosen to let go of those things that I have no control over. It’s going to take a bit of effort but I’ll persevere. It’s one of those lessons that I’ve picked up from this weekend, which had been a blast.
On Saturday I caught a movie (which was always a sure fire pick-me-up-er) and spent the afternoon with two of my best buds, Nicole and Ayzeee. These girls are just amazing. They managed to understand completely where I was coming from and still made sense. They pegged me immediately, citing the fact that I’m doing a LOT of waiting as the root cause of my problems. They knocked some sense into me really, really gently because they cushioned the blow with cheesecake and gossip. Needless to say, I love these girls.
On Sunday I took a trip to Valenzuela with the family; that place is always so interesting, it’s ridiculous. Something’s always going on and there’s always fresh news somewhere. I lost a lot of sleep but I did get to talk to a lot of people whom I’ve just realized that I’ve missed severely. I’ve only been away from that place for three weeks but my enjoyment at their presence is just beyond words. I even got to hear mass yesterday as well.
Now there’s yet another reason why I can’t wait to finish all of these nursing exams: so I can finally take a month off and relax at our house in Valenzuela. It’s always a hoot, spending time with cousins.
I really have no reason to bitch and moan. I needed the reality check so life handed me one that was harsh. But it made up for the harshness by giving me these awesome experiences. I’m actually excited for about attending my Intravenous Therapy training tomorrow at UST. Poking people with needles should be fun.
