So the NMAT (National Medical Admission Test) was probably one of the most difficult exams I’ve ever thken in my entire life, if only because I was totally unprepared for it.  it was actually very reminiscent of my Philippine Science High School entrance exam experience when I was thirteen.  God, I felt so inadequate, so stupid, it was almost depressing.

The first part of the test was just WHOA.  Too many questions to answer in so little time.  For the first time in years I actually ran out of time on a test.  Because of the time limit I ended up shading bubbles randomly on at least forty items on the computation section.  I think I got crossed-eyed in the mirror images part.  I hope that the verbal part and the inductive reasoning part can rescue my grade.

The second part wasn’t so hot either.  Sure I finished the test half an hour too early but what the hell did I know about ohms, resistors, moles and equilibrium reactions?  I guess that’s the undeniable truth because I know deep in my heart that had I put in as much effort as I could have in preparing for the damned test, I’m sure I still wouldn’t be able to tell you the formula for a Watt.  And personally I take it as a gift from God that the social science part of the exam was filled mostly with psychiatric questions.  And I’d like to think that I’m good in answering psychiatric questions. 

I hope the questions I did get to answer would help tide me over to the line of seven side when the results come out.  Yes, that’s exactly what I’m aiming for: a seventy percent of the whole exam, which at this point, looks pretty freakin’ bleak right about now. 

And I know that I’ll feel bad about failing because my mother seemed so set on getting me in to a medical school.  She doesn’t care if I get into UST or not, but I do.  And I know that my father’s not too keen on the idea of me studying for four more years but at least he hasn’t said anything about it.  Heck, my brother even drove me to La Salle on the day of the exam. 

I’d hate myself for letting them all down.