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unravelling the thoughts of an emotional blockhead

You know that one elusive moment of perfection when two people of different backgrounds just connect?  I’m sure it’s happened to you, my dear reader, at least once in your life here on earth. 

It’s either you and that other person already know each other or you’ve just met for the very first time, but that spark of chemistry’s just there.  It just can’t be denied.  It’s might or might not be anything remotely romantic but still, it is there.

You and this other person get talking and you both surprise each other at how much exactly you have in common.  You have the same views and opinions on most matters and even when you do disagree on some points, you still feel exhilarated during the debates.

There’s this bond that’s almost palpable and you can’t help but just jive.  For some unexplained reason you can’t help but to trust this other person (whom you’ve just met, or met again after so many years) and things you normally wouldn’t say to such perfect strangers just tumble out of your lips.  It’s not like you’re divulging secrets or anything, you say so to yourself, but that nagging voice in the back of your head tells you that if this person you’re in front of were any other person, you wouldn’t be talking about these kinds of things with him or her.

Then you part ways, again or for the first time, because the both of you do have different lives to lead and different roles to play out.  You shake each other’s hands, you buss each other’s cheeks and you give each other a tight hug, thanking each other profusely for the great time and promising each other that there will be a repeat of this experience.

So you sit and wait until that opportunity when the two of you will meet again, daydreaming of how exactly everything will pan out.  You think of the perfect opening line, how that other person will react, how you yourself will react and how perfectly you both will fall into conversations, as if the last few months (or years) you’ve been apart didn’t even happen.

But as these things have a way of ending up, nothing goes according to plan.  You do meet again eventually, but something (or everything) has changed.  You try saying the perfect line you’ve concocted inside your head but everything’s askew.  The energy feels different, the smiles seem forced and everything is just awkward. 

You have no other choice but to both take a step back and away from each other, knowing that things will never be the same as before and it would be nothing short of futility for you to venture further into your relationship.

And thus, a magical relationship ends, possibly ruined by too much expectation or by circumstance.  It might’ve been the most special bond you’ll ever form with another human being on this earth but you’ll just have to accept the fact that it’ll fade away into nothing more than acquaintanceship. 

You have no other choice but content yourself with the memories of that once perfect meeting.  

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